All Apologies

Well folks....It has been a slice.

Along with other old habits, this blog has finished serving its purpose to me as well. I may write again some day, but for now you will have to look elsewhere for poorly written random gibberish.

For me, this blog was a creative and emotional outlet if you will. I know they say highschool is suppose to be the most difficult time in a persons life. Well, I beg to differ. I managed to make the last two years of my life the most difficult. I can say with certainty they contained the best moments, but also the worst I have ever gone through.

I told half the story in a previous post, and was going to tell the other half prior to me leaving. I think I have done the right thing by actually telling the person, instead of telling the internet. Ha.

There is a reason for all of this I am sure. For now it is obvious I have made so many grave mistakes. Mistakes I didn't think I was capable of. In doing so I began to dislike who I was as a person. I guess the purpose of all this was to learn. I think I have learned more about myself, and people in general, in the last two years then I managed to figure out in the 24 previous ones.

I also now know the feeling of loss once again. It had been quite sometime since I even put myself in a position to do so. This time it was too late. In a sad and almost funny way I was afraid this was going to happen.

It has become apparent that I do not plan my future for myself. I think of the person in it, and plan to suit their needs. I can sustain life off lucky charms and Mr.Noodles and not really be bothered by it. I do not have a future planned anymore. I have no idea where I will end up, or what I will be doing. I guess this is a good thing as I now get to create whatever I want. I believe this new bar will get the majority of my attention and energy in the days to come. Look for a lounge in the Main and Locke area that may or may not be called "Bar in the Back".

My prediction of my future? I get lost in my business life so deeply that I become unplugged from the parts of my life that ail me. In doing so I will become whom ever I am suppose to become. It will be that guy who is found by the right person for me, and I will spend the rest of my days living for them.

So with all my stories finished, and my life going down a new road I think it is probably best to shut this thing down. The past is the past as they say.

What happens next I can not tell...Whatever it is it will be with everything I have.

Thanks for reading, hope you got something out of it.

Wish you all the luck,

Just John.